Mental Decay in the Sunshine State

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Thursday, January 17th 2008

08:37:35 AM

I can't think if any reasons NOT to kill myself

I've been very depressed since monday. I had a shit time at the gynecologist, which gave me a migraine, then I had to go to the Psych with SP again, and that wasn't productive and we argued again, and my endometriosis pain is outrageously bad too.

So we got home about 6pm from the Psych and I went and slept in the van as I couldn't stand the noise from SP running on the treadmill, as my migraine was so bad.

I dont think he even noticed I wasn't around, as he never even came to look for me.

I have several good reasons to be very depressed, which I wanted SP to ask about, when I told him I didn't want to live anymore, but he ignored me:

1.   i have pain almost every day of my life an no-one seems to want to help me fix it
2.   I have no confidence in my own ability to do a job which I am trained for
3.   The man I love and want to be with, wants to be intimate with other people, so why am I here?

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